This week has been one of the worst weeks of my life! I have never been so unmotivated, unfocused, depressed, lifeless, confused, lost...well, you get the point. In short, it was a bad week. But in the midst of my (self-induced) darkness, I realized God was merely attempting to get my attention. Well not merely...He knew allowing me to go through "the fire and the water" was unfortunately going to be the only way He could have my undivided attention.
These past few weeks, months, years even, I'd been so busy planning my life that I hadn't consulted Him to get His opinion, thoughts, or approval. Now don't get me wrong -- I'd been talking to Him, but that was part of the problem. I was talking TO Him but not with Him, nor was I listening to what He might have been saying and I definitely hadn't been providing Him with opportunities to lead, direct and guide me by His responses. So this week amidst tears, tissues and major temptation, I learned to wait. To be still. To listen to the still small voice that has been trying to get my attention for quite some time. And guess what? He led me here...isn't God good?
So we'll see where this journey takes us. I hope you'll join me, that you'll enjoy the process and most importantly that you'll be blessed by what is shared in this blog. Feel free to respond.
In Christ,
SistaV
I had the same type encounter. I relate it to Paul's Damascus road experience (please check out my blog...."Paul was OCD"). He was doing what he though God wanted him to do, but he was not listening. It took a violent event for Saul/Paul to stop long enough for Christ to get his attention....look what happened after that. The journey you have begun is not a solo one. It is amazing to find so many people who have had the same experience, or are having the experience right now. I believe God is raising up what Israel Houghton prophecied as the "new breed"....a group of people that will hear God's voice, no REALLY hear God's voice.
ReplyDeleteIt was adversity that birthed by blogs about 6 months ago. My pain, has been a blessing to those that have read them. Paul said it was good that I was afflicted. I hate you had such a bad week, but praise God for the victory that we all enjoy because of your pain. Please also check out my "Kidney Stone" blog....same revelation.